I wrote this poem nearly 4 years ago Too Many Thoughts.
What I didn’t realise back then is that these things I was feeling were clear signs of Depression. I was really good at the self-reflection, but not good enough to see the bigger picture. Too mired in my own stew of self-reflection to notice what was a pretty significant decline in my mental wellbeing.
Glad to report that I’m on anti-depressants and I’m doing great!